# 2 The world she has seen

I was standing in front of the temple for a while. I come to the senses suddenly and give a bitter smile because I am too egoistic.

(... it is too conceited, ... my thought is left in a portal coincidentally, and someone receive that.)

Such superficial miracle cannot be happen. I have to do it by myself now before I ask others for help. I begin to walk again, to the battlefield where I should go.

While walking the night time city streets devoid of any sign of life, I felt my heart beat beating louder. I am heading to the Hulong Laboratory, where I earn my living, and the core of the enemy presence at the same time.

I remember what took me to enter the laboratory. It was a mixed experience of one born as the Sensitive, and trails of failures...

From my very childhood, I saw the world differently from the "normal" people. I saw things others could not see, and I felt things others could not feel.

With the invention of the XM Scanner application "Ingress" I can now explain the world I saw to the others; however what I have "felt" is still difficult to communicate. The world I see through my own eyes is very much like the world that is projected on the flat surface of the device running the "Ingress" app.

The transition always comes without prior signs; the world around me full of colors become distinctively odd landscape enclosed in the shadows. White, blue, and green lights littered around on the black terrain with all other colors and shapes blurred out. This was the "Talent" given to me at birth.

My parents noticed my "Talents" when I was three. Worried about his daughter making unusual comments, father took me to the hospital for an inspection. No matter which tests, the results were always negative. Neither the brain nor the retina was found to be faulty. The Doctor eventually gave up, noting possible cause of psychological nature.

My parents treated me like some kind of a monster. When they understood when my symptoms never faded with age, they took distance. I felt sorrow and solitude, but I now understand that my parents were not at fault. How can anyone not seeing the world the same, standing on the uncommon ground understand each other? In reality, my attempt to understand my parents, understand my friends were failures. I felt I stood alone, shrouded in the darkness, a forever solitary human.

I accepted this was my "Destiny". There is "None that can see the world I see, none that can share the world I felt". Keeping this dear to my heart, I hid my "Talent" and submersed myself amongst the normal.

But an unexpected turning point came in my life. I will never forget that day, December 2012. An unknown substance was discovered at Swiss Physics Laboratory CERN.

The substance named "Exotic Matter (XM)" was reported to have the potential to affect the human mind.

I was shocked when I saw the visualized image, "A scene where colorful light floats in the darkness" were projected exactly same as the world which I saw from my early age!

I felt there was the key to solving the mystery of my "Talent". I have begun to gather information about XM from that day on. I felt as if I have found a ray of light in the darkness.