Disappearing memories

Sometimes I think I'm being lied

Sometimes not

But actually I really don't wanna be clinging or irritating

Should I just stop

They're being more and more mysterious

I do really feel jealous

But I can't help it

I used to make her mine but I have to admit there's times when I have to let go even if it's the most hard thing to do. I know my parents, my brothers need me and I'm grateful but when it comes to friendship I think I won't ever get that thing

But why Allah said we can have bestie and if it's real we can get them to the heaven too

Will she hold me on or just give up on me

I don't know, Idk! Idk! IDK! CUZ.I.DONT.KNOW!!!

Whatever she's okay or not

She's just blocking my path to her

I should just restrict myself

It's better this way

Will I even be free?...

I'm not tired, I'm just anxious, worried sick about my relationship

I don't let anyone know

I won't

"No matter what’s going on, you’re still my best friend. I’m here when you’re ready to talk."....I wanted to say it to her...

I don't care if she thinks I'm lower than him, I think I'm the best