Дневник с Крузенштерна, год 2002-2003. Часть двадцать вторая.

02.04.2003 Wednesday Privet, Mijn Lieve Koshkatje! I love you so much and I miss you here.
After your departure weather is trying to becomes worse. In Sunday at evening clouds came, at Monday even a raintje was. Now, Wednesday morning, the wind sounds like before hurricane. But sun is shining and I hope good weather.
And Yesterday I was on top of bitsan mast two times. I was needed to take down TV-antenna and I wanted to be there for looking around. I was so afraid and moved so slow. But view was so nice. I sow and bridge, where we sow Kruzenshtern from, and Swetliy City, and Kaliningrad Gulf and channel. First time it was 10 minuts of top. Second time I was there with instruments for dismantling antenna and measuring size of top of mast for new antenna. And it was one hour. I was getting cold with every minute (so cold wind – if I would knew about it, I would dress in t-short. Only in underwear it is not warm). I was so happy when I went down on the deck with big construction of antenna (and so cold, so cold). And Lev Orlov with Misha Privalov was placing white wood stopper on the end of the Second Grot Rhea. "Why I didn’t take my camera?" - I was thinking.
And at evening of Monday and Thursday we was playing footbal (We – it is me, Serioga Osow and Misha Privalov. And Yesterday I was with Misha only ;-).
Good good good news! Salary will rise in two times. I will get 12 euro per day and in end of month constant premium 360 euro. 720 euro per month! Das gut.
Kruzenshtern will leave dry dock in Monday. But when we will leave Kaliningrad I don’t know exactly. Michael Novikov said to Brigitte 20th of April. I trust it.
Today I will go to Academy for contract, today evening I will speak with you, Tomorrow I will get my money and next I will hide my camera inside of big pancakes or sweet patty and try to go trough control point to the factory for nice nice nice pictures of Kruzenshtern.
I think I will send this letter to you, but may be I will start new Diary from Russia with Love. I don’t know.
Send one’s regards to Brigitte, Your Mother and Sister, Leo and Margriet and the rest nice people who I know.
I love you and I’m falling in love wit you again, My Sweet Iratje. Six week – it is nothing in comparison with age of World. And you and your Love are part of World too.
Your Mishkatje with kisses and hugs.

P. S. Ira, can you send me files about windows XP (internet explorer files from my folder Kostja/van kostja/PC, if I remember it right)? Name of one file includes number 8. Thank you.

Крузенштерн в сухом доке на заводе "Янтарь".

05.04.2003 Saturday

Hoi, Ira – Mijn Lieve Koshkatje!
I think, I will not go home for week-end, because football is every day till Tuesday. Yesterday I wanted to call you very much, but I didn’t do it. And even bad weather (snow with rain and strong wind) would not stopped me. But I said to myself: “If you will call today, you can’t call afterwards, before sailing, because you will have no money.” Today or tomorrow I will try to find telephone, which one you can call me. And in the meanwhile...
At Thursday morning I robbed bank in Gvardeysk without gun, only with my passport and big parapluie. It lasted about two hours and police didn’t know about it. People in the bank felt nervous, only I kept cool. To tell the truth, I got about 850 rubles, but at the same time I came out victor! Next I got two more signatures in my contract and now I need to go to Academy in ninth of April for getting stamp and signature of rector. And from 10th of April I will start to work on Kruzenshtern, my vacation will finish.
And in afternoon I rowed with Lew Orlov to bus station, because he invited on Kruzenshtern my schoolfriend, who was in Poland with my mother. I think, Lew has some plans for her. We had dinner together.
Yesterday, all my troubles seems to faraway, la-la-la la-la-la.... Good song. Yesterday I was a little bit stupid, and therefore I have had to climb up to top of bitsan mast two times. Now I’m smart again. And in 4 o’clock was football. We played with champions of Russia (they are 18 years old). They was so impertinent and played inadmissibility roughly, referee was their coach and he umpired so bad. In middle of second half they started a fight, and our coach took away our team. Second big football in this year for me was with battle again.
I almost finished russian CV, I don’t have diplomas from Academy and school with me. And I found information about all shipping/crewing company in Sankt-Petersburg and about BGI, where worked my friend.
I will go soon to football, and before it I will come for congratulation to one my friend, today is her birthday. I both little plant – dracaena.
OK, Koshkatje, I have to go. I Love You So Much and Miss You So Much too, kiss-kiss-kiss, I will see you soon and I will hear you even erlier. You are lucky – you sow pictures from Russia already. I’m envying for you. I took a lot of pictures of Kruzenshtern, and if I will print pictures in Kaliningrad, I will send to you the best. I Love You. Wish you “alles gut”. Your Mishkatje. I Love You. (Short signals in telephone) I told with you.

07.04.2003 Monday

Privet, My Beloved Koshkatje.
I’m feeling pain in every muscles of my body – it is after football. After one month without sport. And at night, when I tried to turn around, I was waking up, and sometimes I was afraid, because life with you and life without you – there are two different things. May be, you are not real? May be, you are dream? No, no, I know – you are, you are My Lieve Koshkatje, I trust in you. I Love You and I Miss You. I never missed a dream. You are real.
In Kaliningrad is winter now. Snow and strong wind and frost. And we was playing football in the mud. Today, may be, we will play on the ice. But we was winners yesterday, we won 3:0, and first goal I scored. Today will be the most important game with the most powerful team of institute of frontier guards at 1800.
What about pictures from Russia? Is it nice? O, I don’t doubt. I would want to see pictures right now, but I need to wait till Hamburg.
Did you get CD-Writer and DVD-Writer or what? I think, you don’t need really Plus/Minus DVD-Writer.
In Friday, when I came back on Kruzenshtern at evening, everybody went to home. And Misha closed his room with teakettle and electric stove and with my pelmeny in refrigerator. But I went shopping (tea, sausage, big yogurts, juice, apples and nuts) and found waterkoker (чайник - голл.) in one room, i.e. I was satisfied with food in week end.
Kruzenshtern will not leave a dock today and tomorrow, and I don’t know, when it will happen, a lot of things is not ready.
Yesterday was birthday of Misha Privaloff, today evening some seamen will go to football with team of Kaliningrad region – Baltica, and they will drink for Misha’s health. I think, Bultica will loose, and I don’t want to go.
Yesterday I told with your answer machine three times, and second time your machine was speaking so much and repeated all words. I could not call to your mobile telephone, I have got no answers from it.
Say Hallo to Brigitte, and people from your work in the House.
With one Big Big Love and thousand little kisses, your Mishkatje.

08.04.2003 Tuesday

Tuesday already, and yesterday was Monday. Then tomorrow will be Wednesday. When can I hear you? I need it. I miss your voice so much. I have no news from you in last week. Yesterday before football internet in university was busy, and after game came my old old friend, and I went with him to cafe for tea and to have a talk. Later I went to Kruzenshtern and didn’t send e-mail for you. What I don’t like in my life here – I can’t do what I want to do. Wait, I can call you right now. I’m already going.
Ira, Dear Ira, I don’t know why I can not call to your mobile telephone. I can’t call and can’t send SMS to you. I called to Brigitte and said something. And today I am sad. I hope I will send to you this letter, My Real Dream. May be, I will go to home Thursday morning, I don’t know. I want to hear you for my good luck. Yesterday we lost 0:3, if we will win today, we will have third place. I’m tired from football, I need to have a rest.
And last night I dreamed about you – it means I will hear you soon and see you.
Kostja-sunje.
Tuesday evening, after our short (but so important and encouraging) conversation. About 2130 local time.
You so much mean in my live, that I can not compare it with something. Everything – absence of money, not enough food, bad bad weather (winter is outside, now is snowfall) – that didn’t make me glad without you, there are so funny now. After conversation with you I both pack of milk and baguet for my last money and in a bus I tried to drink milk and half ran out on my jacket. Now I’m drinking hot tea in radioroom and everything is OK-OK. I’m so happy I know You I love You You know Me You Love Me.
I got ball for football from Academy for “longstanding considerable contribution in development of football in Academy” before today’s match. It was so nice. But we didn’t win, 0:0. Players from another team said: “Your team has so good defender, he didn’t let us to play.” It’s me, Ira! (I will not die from modesty) It was the best appraisal!
Internet didn’t work today in Kaliningrad. I could not even open my mailbox and yours!
Tomorrow I will finish business with my contract in Academy, I will try to send you this letter, and at evening I will meet with my friends from Tanja’s birthday.
I will talk with you at Thursday!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I’m looking forward so much!
Kostja Cheery!

14-04-2003 Monday

Koshkatje, my Koshkatje, Mijn Lieve Koshkatje – PRIVET!
Give me a kiss, give me a kiss... Lips to lips 8-)) Mmmmmmmmm, nice. Uuuh, I miss your kisses and your lips so much, not to mention the rest you. All my live now is way to you and every way will finish. And I’m so happy I Love You and You Love Me, because I don’t know another meaning of live besides Love. To kiss you, to hug you, to take your hand in mine, to do something together, to be your hero. I was so happy to help you with housework. And I will be so happy to bring up together our children. I have been thinking about our life often. It will be nice. I’m looking forward. Nothing in life I need as much as I need you.
Now is 23:21, after long day I’m tired and not funny. I will go to sleep – tomorrow early morning I will go to hospital for medical commission. In Sunday I worked in a garden of grandparents. And today I was in Academy, in hospital and got new pictures from Maastricht and factory. I will scan it and send you the best. And your pictures... Than longer I’ve been looking it, than more I like it (I like you so much on picture with cats).
Nice dreams to you and me. Good night, My Darling. I Love You.
Kostik

18.04.2003. Friday

Dear Koshkatje!
If would only you know about my last two days – sometimes I wanted to say: “Oh, it is my the most bad day in a life! My life, dreams, planes are breaking down!” Last two days everything was against me. By short, bad news - my diploma of radio operator is invalid. I didn’t trust it – women from Academy said me about it in Thursday morning. And with every my step situation was more and more bad. I didn’t have time for eating and was needed to wake up so early. On top of it all I lost my seamen’s book. I don’t know how I had the patience and where I got power from. I didn’t stop. I tried to find good exit, because I trust in you, in our Love, In our good luck. Do you want to know what is now? I will go on Kruzenshtern as sailor and I will work like radio operator – it is in first voyage. Second voyage I will go as sailor, I think. It is more better than nothing. And Now one good news more – benches are standing on the aft of the ship. Are you glad? Don’t worry, I’m OK now. I will go to home in Saturday and we will talk, because I miss you so badly, I need you so much. Now I will go to sleep or rather I will crawl, I feel nothing on a place of my feet. I Love You, Iri, My Little Tender Koshkatje

Sunday 20th of April 2003

0.54 I came back on Kruzenshtern, My Lieve Koshkatje. Without difficulties. I wanted to talk with you more, but... Time, time, I can’t buy time. I took with me Little Mishkatje from home, where he was alone. My grandparents gave to you greetings, and I got big pack of patties, chocolate, apples, oranges, juice and 4 cans of jam! And 4 cans from my mother! I will have sweet life. I have to tell you very much, but I will do it tomorrow or after tomorrow. Sweet dreams to you. And I’m so sorry you was crying. Really. I will try to not allow you it in future.

Если фотографии наложить друг на друга, то получится грандиозный триптих. Только так можно было сфотографировать Крузер от киля и до топа мачты.

Перо руля площадью 12 квадратных метров и гнезда для двух гребных винтов.

Якорная цепь.

Адмиралтейский якорь.

Один из двух кранов сухого дока.

Окрестности завода "Янтарь".

Мне очень нравится домик крановщика))).

Обычно здесь стоит штурвал.

Миша Привалов за работой.

Вид с мачты Крузенштерна: вон на том футбольном поле мы гоняли после работы мяч.

Вид на Калининградский залив.

Завод "Янтарь" - до недавного времени стратегический военный объект, а потому чрезвычайно секретный. Чтобы вынести дискету с территории завода, нужно подтверждение капитана судна, что это личная вещь, не содержащая секретной информации. Фотоаппарат на территория завода в первый раз не пропустили, пришлось проносить его между блинами и пирожками от бабушки

Говорю же, домик крановщика мне очень нравится.

Продолжение - часть двадцать третья.