these words describe my current life and everything hapenning around me right now. today, i remembered my past life, when everything was so heavy, like everything was weighing on me. i forgot, lost myself around thoughts of future and past. i was lost. my present was illusion for me. time no longer existed. i was a ghost. i was chasing ghosts. i didn't know what will i do and what shoud i do. i felt like i'm just existing in this world. i felt like garbage. even the simplest situations seemed like problems for me. i was under water, i wanted to scream as nobody saw or knew real me inside a body. i thought the problem was in physical condition. but it was in my mind. i lived in the past and feared the future. i knew it, but i didnt have...